I'm feeling lost in the storm....

The clouds have rolled in. The wind is blowing, hard and fast all around. The skies are dark and there is lightning striking and thunder crashing. This is how I feel. I feel like there is a storm surrounding my life right now, and that with just enough force the wind could pick me up and blow me away.

From the daily stress of having a large blended family. The bickering, the arguing, the chores, and fighting. The stress of work, school, kids, husband, dogs, all these lives depending on me, and demanding of me. The clouds. The people who have caused the storm to grow and continue to push the wind. With each new lightning strike our family is weakening, are we going to be able to weather this one? Will we make it out as a whole? What will be left? 

I'm so tired. I'm tired of trying to keep things together while the winds tear them apart. 

I feel like I'm lost, like the clouds have consumed me. I've lost the desire to smile, and be happy. I've lost the urge to fight for what's mine. 

Is it even worth fighting for something that no one else is fighting for? 

The clouds don't look like they are going anywhere, and I'm not sure if I'm strong enough anymore to weather this storm. 

Maybe it's a good idea to leave, and seek shelter where the sun shines and the winds don't blow, and the thunder doesn't shake me to the core.