Debbie downer :-(

I'm sitting at school, waiting for class to start, and I'm in a yucky mood... I am so frustrated with this whole job thing. I am working on getting myself the education I should have gotten a long time ago, and I need to work too. The problem... No one wants to hire me! I am a quick learner, and have a ton to offer, I just can't seem to get my foot in the door! Psht... I guess this is what I get for being a dummy for so long! I don't know if I would be as frustrated, if I didn't have to watch people around me, who don't need help getting the assistance me & my family need... I am too honest to lie to get the help, that the govt. says we don't qualify for! But, it seems like having 5 children, and only one income isn't enough. Maybe if we had coach shoes & LV purses, and drove pimped out escalade's, we would get help! Or maybe we need the jewelry too! Sorry, I said Debbie downer... Eh, I'm off...

Hump Day

Well, it's Wednesday, & that means it's hump day! The week is half over and I'm still exhausted! I was in bed last night by 9 o'clock, and I don't even remember falling asleep. Bonus*** Joseph went to sleep in his crib last night with very little fighting!*** Win for mom! Hey, I'll take what I can get! I feel like what ever victories I am able to achieve, no matter how big or small I will enjoy them! LOL! So...I have been feeling very stressed out lately...even more so than usual! Things are about to get pretty tough (I'm predicting). My unemployment runs out this week, I will get my last check, and then it will be up to my wonderful hubby to support us on his own, since no one seems to want to hire me! Its really frustrating, and brings up a lot of self worth crap that I thought I was finally conquering. I have for the last 2 years tried to find a job...sometimes more actively than others, but either way, I've done the whole contact them after submitting my resume thing and it just seems that I'm un-hire-able...Whatever! I wish that I could get paid to do what I do best, and that's be a mom! Now hold on! I didn't say I'm a perfect mom, but I am a very good mom, and wife, and I make sure that everyone is taken care of from the time I wake up to the time they all go to sleep, (often forgetting about my self...but that's par for the course), and if I could get paid to do that life would be perfect...but then again it would be perfect if the tree in my back yard that drops stupid olives all over the place would drop gold coins, or even dimes. But hey life isn't perfect and there's no such thing as magic, so I have to suck it up and quit whining and do something about it. I am going to look for a job and find a job that will help my family until I am finished with school and can start my career... UGH, ok well enough of that for now...I feel like maybe I should do a post later that gives you a little more background of who I am...I say you, like there is anyone reading this blog anyway...LOL!

Test test test!

Trying out the mobile blog thing! Let's see how this goes! I'll probably post more from here than the computer! The picture is of me & the oldest!

Sleep deprived :(

Hello! Well, let me just say first that I'm exhausted! I have been working for the past week & a half (yay!) and it's taking some getting used to, that's for sure. I am so glad to be working, even if it's only for a short time. Anyway... I am struggling with my lil Joe and his not wanting to sleep in his crib. He was doing fantastic sleeping there until we took him off the bottle. That's when things went south! He makes the biggest fuss over being put in his crib! You'd think he was being beaten, or severely maimed the way he goes on. I've tried to let him cry it out, picking him up only to console him for a short time, then putting him back in his crib. I've tried laying with my head next to his crib and rubbing his head, I've tried, just letting him scream (but I feel awful)...He will fall fast asleep when he's laying in our bed. I don't want to hear him cry and be unhappy, but I also don't want him sleeping in our bed until he's 5 like my youngest daughter did... I'm so frustrated, and I get angry, which isn't fair to him....I wish there was a magic potion, or trick that would help him to sleep in his own bed... Well, I'm off for now...trying to find the energy to stay awake! 

Me :)

Hello there! My name is April, and this is my first time doing a blog. I'm not to sure how this blog thing works, so bear with me...(as if I'll have any readers...LOL)! Let's see, let me tell a little bit about myself...I am 32, married to a wonderful man, who I've known since I was 15 (we went to high school together, but lost contact and found each other after 10 years <3 ), we have been married almost 3 years now! I have quite a big family, my hubby had 3 children from his previous marriage, plus I had 2 of my own, and now we have 1 together...yes, that's 6! 6 children! LOL, it's crazy and chaotic, but I love it! Lets see, what else is there to know? I am currently in school for medical assistant, because I lost my job almost 2 years ago (next month will be 2 years ): ). OOH, I almost forgot...we have 3 doggies...a chocolate lab, Remy, a Blue/Brindle Pit-bull, Zeus, and Scottish terrier/cocker spaniel mix, princess! I am a real down to earth person, and I try to avoid drama as much as possible, but with a blended family, sometimes it's unavoidable. I guess that's all for now...I will be trying to keep up with this blog thing as much as possible, I think that this will be a sort of "therapy" for me...LOL!